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You think

You think I do not see you, sitting there in the shadows, waiting. I have seen you for so long you are almost part of me. I can't remember a time I have NOT seen you sitting there in the shadows. Watching, waiting. Waiting for that one clue that today I will give you what you want, or I am so weak I won't say no. That my defenses are down and you can just walk right in and take what you want. You think I would be used to you by now, your darkness, your shadowy face, smiling a smile that never quite reaches your eyes. You think I don't hear you calling? Then you are mad. I try...

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The death angel

After dreaming last night it got me to thinking as those type of dreams often do, about the death angel, then I got to looking at pictures of what people suppose he/she/it looks like and it hit me, the pictures have feeling in them, death has no feeling. He/she/it is neither good nor bad, he/she/it just IS. For the purposes of this blog we will say it when refering to the death angel. It is not romantic, it is not a protector, it shows no sympathy with the target, it has one job to do and it does it very well. It takes souls on their way to their final destinations. It does not care from the highest in the land...

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In dreams of you

Today is Jan. 2nd 2016 and the first official day of the new year. I dreamed of you last night and I hate you for it. I hate you because you brought back old feelings and memories, I hate you becau… Source: In dreams of you

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In dreams of you

Today is Jan. 2nd 2016 and the first official day of the new year. I dreamed of you last night and I hate you for it. I hate you because you brought back old feelings and memories, I hate you because of your life choices, and I hate you because you made me cry. I hate that in my dreams you were there with me, I hate that you still smelled of old spice, I hate the way your eyes twinkled when you looked at me, I hate the deep timbre of your voice, and I hate that smile that always made me happy. I hate that I did not want to wake, that I wanted to stay with you...

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Letter to A hidden love

I loved you once so dearly, I love you still so much. I has been so long since I saw you. I crave your smile. It has been so long since I heard your deep laughter or felt your tender touch. It is amazing to think that I lost you, for a pastor's wife's stupid advice. If I could go back in time, I'd find you. I'd never let you go. I have longed for you since High school, I almost had you once or twice. To think we never made love, in all the years I have known you, makes the void even deeper still, the craving for your touch, painful. Do you still think of me? Do you even...

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